Do you need a reason to love??

I boarded the bus, put my bag on the nearby seat & turned my back to watch her leave. The feeling to see her, first slip from my arms & then from my eyes was detrimental. That was, may be, the first time when my mind in support of my heart,  told me to get down the bus, take a rigorous run and being oblivious of the hypocrites around…just hug….in the mild, angelic drizzling….

I was cursing each second that passed, each distance that made me feel she was far. It’s savage, I yelled to myself. I hated everything that was been offered to me….

My eyes were desperate to have a glimpse of that loving, cherishing, benign face….just to make sure that she was weeping, both inside & outside. But she didn’t turn back…it pierced my heart…my eyes were behaving like a child, being left alone in a boarding school by the most loved person in his life…

I wanted to reprimand…don’t know to whom…because in addition to every little thing was hurting, the drizzle became grave & it began to rain heavily….the white clouds were begetting to dark ones. These dark clouds poured tears on the ground, as if it read our hearts, as if it was teasing me on our incapability to weep in front of each other, as if it coaxed me to go and pull her with force of love towards me….

She was completely off the scene in a jiffy…yes…in a jiffy, I was taken aback to witness this... from past seven days I spend the best time of my life with her and now how the hell she can vanish within a wink!!!

The bus moved, I didn’t want to unless I could stop questioning myself why did she disappear in the empty crowd, far from me…

The bus got on the road, I looked outside the window and there was this glorious, exquisite, exhilarating beauty of the green plants, trees lying all over the image formed in your eye...I, from my childhood loved this greenery to fullest….it always made me happy and juvenile. This time, it was different, it stunned me by making me upset….the cell phone rang, and I received without bothering who called. It was she

“Did the bus leave? “

“Yes”

“Its raining heavily and I am completely wet”

“doo doo not get wet….just grab an auto”

“nope…I want to feel the pain that you have left

If I go by auto, I will reach home early and get distracted from the feeling early …”

With a lump in my throat,”I will call you later”..the line went dead.. I sneaked out of the window and within fraction of seconds….i could feel the warmth generated in my eyes, while rest of my body was bitten by cold weather…the warmth made my eyes moist….

I closed my eye, wishing the tears could roll down my cheek, but they were obstinate enough to stick to my eyes and not fall….

This was so hard because we never knew when we could meet next time, with this meet being our first… we met on facebook three months back…without even knowing about me, she said she loved me!! I was way skeptical until I met her, touched her to heave a sigh of relief that she’s for real. The love she had for me was audaciously screaming at me through the touch of her hands, through her alluring eyes, through the passion hidden in the hug, it didn’t do any acrobatic, fanatic stuff to make me feel that… the love was naïve and i couldn’t stop falling in love with her…..for the first time ever in my life, I felt unconditional love….that was truly touching...

And then against all odds stacked , we met,spent time. We had the best time of our lives but every best thing and not good thing is short lived. If one fine morning I want to talk to her by holding her hands, I have to take a stride of 800kms. She showed me a very true yet miraculously disguised thing and that is,

‘You love someone just because you have spent a lot of time; well that’s a reason

You love someone just because you didn’t feel THE THING for anyone else; well that’s also a reason

If you love truly someone…….well you need to find a reason because it’s only then you will realize you don’t have any”’